This week, I have been reading on being able to see God's beauty and recognizing what He calls beautiful vs what what He doesn't
I didn't grow up in the church, though I visited with friends on occasion. Prior to college, I had a "belief in God", but I didn't have a relationship with Him. There were a number of times when going to a service or activity with a friend that I would raise my hand when the adult in charge was asking the hard questions like "Do you want to know for sure if you died you would go to heaven?"
What child wouldn't want to know for sure, of course I threw my hand up. This turned into a few minute conversation and a prayer at the end... To be honest, I am not sure I got it.
But a seed was planted.
In high school and early college, I didn't attend "go to church" on a regular basis.
I had developed my own theology of comparing myself to the "evil" people of the world and determining that I wasn't that bad. I was walking around with broken glasses. I was unable to see anything in front of me. That was until late October of 1995.
My world changed drastically, my life that I thought was well planned and organized. My life where I was the center. My life where I was making decisions and was doing well suddenly came crashing down. HARD!
My father that I had not seen in almost two years had died. I was 20 years old and was having to plan a funeral with the help of relatives I had only met as a young child. My sister and I drove to Georgia from Indiana to take care of the arrangements and gather any personal effects from his rented home.
That was just the start of the crash... If that alone were not enough.
What I didn't realize was how broken my glasses were. What I didn't realize was how distorted, how messed up my vision truly was. --- UNTIL
A few days later I visited the home of a friend, she was not home, but her father was. He was a pastor of a small church and that evening, I received a new pair of glasses. Finally, I could see, finally I could recognize what I was missing. The new pair of glasses came with an unconditional warranty. That evening I accepted Jesus Christ into my life... my savior, my sight giver, my Lord.